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Siento mucho mejor!

I do feel much better, nothing like cali sun sun sun, fun with my friendddddss, and guud food.

nothing like a snow capped white xmas and a hit of relativity reality, reunions, and love.

Best Kuche? Wurstkuche! Exotic Sausages with Veg options. Eat my Veg. Pho now? Bahn Mi later? sure thing. ;)

Sex is food, Food is sex. yes. both is LOVE. this is always true. a framework for survival. both so defined by Science and Culture.

so imagine all the puns and innuendoes at Wurstkuche last night with my dear dear friends who picked me up from the airport in loving arms and charm, exactly a year after they last dropped me off at lax, tucked me under their warm wings and threw food and art in my face. LOVE.

my life has been somewhat uprooted in the past few years, with my heart, my head, my soul, floating about somewhere between three places, and these three places bring out three very different parts of me.  projecting a sense of success in what i do and what i want to accomplish, while finding my feet dug into the roots of my past, of my education, of my upbringing, and learning to express that all through the silver lining of the sun that sustains me so.

so don’t get me wrong, in no way am i complaining here that i’m a jetsetter, au contrare, i’m very aware at how privileged i am, and how much i enjoy sharing my bicoastal and bicountry life.  i also, like many (i like to believe) spend time basking in the many types of relationships that i am discovering about myself with myself, and my world — my heart versus my head, what’s natural vs. what’s created, what i reason vs. what i believe, finding a balance between science and culture, and all that falls in between.

I watched four very interesting TED talks on the airplane and beyond last night,

one about biomimicry on searching for and finding the answers in nature,

one about defining success and failure in life and becoming aware of what we give up in order to find success in one thing while most people define themselves with what they do (name 5 things that defines who you are, without relating it to what you do – go!) ,

one on humans loosing a sense of what’s greater than us, in becoming a narcissistic society while embracing technology and connecting ourselves with each other to define a true global village.  do we need to learn to reconnect with nature in order to co-exist with nature in order to create a global institution to work towards the same thing?

and one on how smart crows are (did u know that crows are the new chimps that work with tools, and adapt fast to their surroundings, because we who live in urban areas have been seeing them as pests instead of learning to co-exist with them, and in that darwin wins in adaptation? yeaaa, i fear birds cuz i was probably killed and eaten by one in my past life, and mostly fearing what’s just more powerful that i on the food chain…HA. Ha. ha. how me.)

humans are stupid to believe that we’re suprior in anyway – only because we’re smart to make toys that manipulate power – yes i just came back from watching AVITAR also – simply mind blowing in production, rich and classic hero tragedy story, and just amazing visual science)

so from the moment i landed, and felt the sun shine down on my face, felt the brisk and beautiful weather, i knew this was something i totally needed during this holiday break. a chance to make new memories, a chance to just hang out and be me, like Cali has always given me the space to do, and a chance to eat till my heart’s content, live in other worlds for moments at a time, and just bask, in the beauty of life whilst still in a giant urbanite vortex – knowingly.  It always amazes me to be in the stateside, because my brain is always stimulated to process and be analytical as i so choose. i have points of references to compare my thoughts on, and am very much a culture princess when it comes to analyzing systems in place through the lens of life, of food, of survival.

i know i’ve always felt like i was somewhere stuck between los angeles, toronto, and new york. and somehow, during this holiday, i’m finding clues, and ways to tie it all together, to make sense of my worlds, to stop projecting my future and dragging my past behind me. to be present. to give up a bit of the narcissistic personal life in order to project my role in society onto a bigger meaning and  relative scale.  in a way, becoming more self loving, but in accepting a greater sense of who i am. and boy does it feel so guud to feed my soul.

From Kima Curry, to Soup Plantation, Burritos, Kim Chi fried rice for breakfast, to Phamish (land of gourmet food trucks – sorry NY, it did start here first), fish taco chains (i miss my Rubios mmm), Guacamole anytime anywhere, Wurstkuche sausages and Belgian beer in a loft space that i can only imagine having direct competition with an imaginary concept in Brooklyn (cuz BK can hang like that)

and  it’s only my second day herr. whuuuuttttt.

and that’s what constantly amazes me here. it’s the amazing company i have who constantly inspire me to slow down, and enjoy, to sip, and be inspired.

sunshine in the middle of january, getting my info saturated world through media art – zines, mags, movies, npr radio, music, video games, online vids, youtube, iphone connectedness.  and not a bit of reading have i done since i left nyc. i am finding that i want to paint, i am drawing, and i am taking a lot of pictures again.

it feels so good to be observing my world this way.

going native,

always poses,

quite interesting predicaments and situations.

bring it on O-10.

bring it on. ;)